I don’t have a place in the blogosphere.
I haven’t for a good year or so and I’m not particularly sure what to do.
When I started blogging in mid 2012, it was a whole new ballgame and I fell madly in love with every aspect: meeting fellow bloggers, attending events, receiving products, building up relationships with brands and so much more.
Fast forward to the first quarter of 2018 and I’m not sure if I have a seat on the blogosphere bus anymore.
I love blogging, I really do.
But of recent weeks, I’ve debated stopping all together but why should I?
Just because I’m not being invited to snazzy events (I’m actually not being invited at all), it doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m not involved in the blogosphere, does it?
Near enough every week night, I flick through Instagram Stories and I’m constantly seeing a handful of my favourite bloggers attending incredible events in both London and Liverpool. But here I am, in my PJs the second I get home from work.
Does that mean I’m jealous of other bloggers?
It’s not necessarily jealously, but it’s more that I’d like to get back involved into the world of blogging. I want to attend brilliant events, I want to write about them, share them with you all and most of all, I want to network with other bloggers.
Please don’t think I haven’t because I really have.
I’ve contacted fellow bloggers about meeting up, helping one another with fashion photos and just generally getting to know them.
But it’s fallen very, very flat.
Either I don’t receive a respond or the conversation going quiet rather quickly and I’ve questioned myself about what I’m doing wrong.
I’ll admit: I rarely go on Twitter anymore, I never tweet anything other than my latest blog post or promoting my Instagram.
I just don’t have the snazzy personality which other bloggers do. I’m not funny, I’m not interested in debates or any drama for that matter and I just don’t have anything to say.
Every now and then, I try to engage with other bloggers on Twitter whether it’s sharing their recent blog post, replying to a tweet or responding to a tweet.
I just don’t know where I sit in the blogosphere.
I have nothing against any other blogger and quite frankly, I’ve had an easy ride throughout the community (the odd drama has been thrown my way once) and I do enjoy having my own space on the Internet but it just doesn’t seem enough.
Am I making a bigger deal out of this?
Yes. Oh without a doubt, yes!
Perhaps if blogging were my full time job, things would be different. But when I went through the horrible unemployment stage, it was exactly the same.
I just don’t have a big voice in the blogosphere.
I never have, I never will and I have to start being okay with that.
So where do I sit on the blogosphere bus? Well, not on the top deck that’s for sure. I’m not a well known blogger and I’m 100% okay with that, but I don’t sit at the front with the new bloggers as I’ve been doing this little thing for almost 6 years.
I guess I just float somewhere in the middle..