2018 was not my year.
A lot of negative things happened within a period of twelve months.
Life events occurred which have shaped me as a person, changed my mentality and even though I spent weeks crying my eyes out wondering how I could change what had happened, I’m glad those horrific things happened because I’m a stronger, better version of myself than I ever have been before.
When I was a little girl, I had this version that by the time I was 24, I would be married to the man of my dreams, living in a beautiful home, with children and being the best teacher to the reception class.
In reality, I’m 28 and in a very happy relationship with the man of my dreams.
Cheesy, I know but it’s true.
Granted, we don’t live in our own home just yet and we are still living with our parents in separate houses but it’s stable and at this moment in time, we don’t have to worry about owning a home. We don’t have any children and we’re not likely to have any in the near future. Unless you class the miniature dachshund that we plan on buying? I’m not a reception teacher and the closest I will ever come to that is dropping my four year old nephew off in a morning.
What I thought would be my life when I was six years old is very different to how I am now at 28 years old, but I’m happy.
I’ve had a tough set of years – being unemployed, being cheated on, being single for long periods of time, having no money, my Nan’s death, failing my theory test more times than I’ll ever admit, being unhealthy.
Blah blah blah.
But I’ve some incredible moments within those challenging years – travelling Australia and New Zealand, passing my driving test, finding the man I want to be with until I pop my clogs, saving money, making an investment, watching my nephews and niece grow up…
I am so much happier now at the age of 28 than I was at the age of 21 when I was fresh out of university; unsure what to do, kick starting my blog and working silly hours in a job I disliked.
I now understand that I had to go through those crappy years in order to be where I am today and granted, 2019 may throw some curve balls my way but I’m stronger and more determined to dodge those balls than ever before.
I’m in a stable relationship, I’ve got money tucked away for a rainy day, I’ve got my own little car, I’m working on my fitness and even though we’re not in our own home just yet or I’m currently unemployed (again), I know that the universe will throw me some good luck soon.
The moral of this post?
I’m happier than I ever have been.